Being Alone

by Sonja Kramer Haag


I don’t like it

but I don’t hate it

I good at it

It’s there

and I put it there

on purpose

and now

I have to learn to make out of it

something better

I can eat I can scratch I can chew I can cry

I can scratch to much

I can eat to much

I can cry not enough

I can be held responsible

I strip naked on the starch sheets

I bang my head against the wall

I sigh

I want a smoke

I get anxious

anxious anxious ANXIOUS

Don’t stifle me

Don’t discourage me

Don’t just sit there and not let me do what I want to do

I scratch

I sigh

I relax

I miss touch, I miss love, I miss understanding

I miss you